why all the negativity?! i am so mad!!

Bismillah, Assalamualaikum :)

So this weekend, my college is organizing Za'ba English Language Campaign 2008 and this is an inter-college event whereby there will be competitions in the form of Jazz Chant, Poetry Recitation, General Knowledge Quiz, Scrabble, Storytelling, Sketch and Spelling Bee.

I am only the coordinator for storytelling (supposedly I was in charge of Scrabble but a friend of mine wanted that experience so I yielded) and in charge of protocol but I’m pretty enthusiastic about this campaign. This is because it’s about creating awareness in the university students that this is the many various fun ways to learn English and to instil a stigma in the university students that learning English is fun.

I was the one who gave the catch phrase for the event and that is, SMILE AND SPEAK ENGLISH *beaming*

I am really fervent about this whole event but not everyone is…

Because this is an inter-college tournament, all 5 colleges are compelled to participate in all events. So we as the JMK use our network to cooperate with all JMK’s from the 5 colleges. Even though I am not even the vice program manager of this campaign but I feel so frustrated at the way people shuddered at the thought that this is an English program. I get so annoyed at the way they respond saying that they have given up looking for participants because many are afraid or just not interested.

Additionally, there’s even a college that hasn’t send even one contestant for any events. I am so mad that I use all the connections I have in that college to practically force them to participate. I don’t even want to force them, let alone make them hate me for pushing them but I can’t just sit back and be contented that every college has sent at least one and that college (just because that college doesn’t have TESL students) hasn’t send anyone at all.

What puzzles me in all of this is the much negativity that we (the workforce) received throughout the process in making this event work. All we ask is to help us look for participants and they themselves can be contestants but no, they just want to have that perception that English intimidates people. And to say that all of us are future teachers. Urgh, I am soooo mad!!!!

To be continued…

everyone knows i don't drink coffee

These candles symbolizes the glow of 25 wonderful years of marriage <3

Bismillah, Assalamualaikum :)

it's been hectic and hectic and hectic and h_cti_. and ok, you get the picture huh..

in spite of that, i want to celebrate, nooo, not valentine (phoeey!) but:

HAPPY 25th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO MY BELOVED PARENTS :)

abah and mama's wedding is my inspiration and i pray and dream of something similar. i strongly believe that the secret to a blissful marriage is the foundation of both the bride and groom and that is the Islamic beliefs that the husband and wife uphold. both spouses can say that they share the same religion but do they share the same beliefs and ideologies? think about this when looking for Mr or Mrs Right ;)

It is He who strengthened you with His help and with the believers.

He has put affection between their hearts. Had you spent all that is in the earth you could not have put affection between their hearts, but Allah put affection between them; verily He is mighty, wise.

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i don't want to say i'm crumbling but sometimes i feel like i am. i do :(

it's just that being balance is sooo challenging and though sometimes i like the exhilaration but at times, i feel so exhausted!

lately, it's been waking up early (but still sleeping after subuh, TSK TSK),
sleeping late but latest at 3am,
classes and tall order assignments,
JMK programs, plus,
my program for the troubled kids -> now about this, i'm so anxious that i even dreamt about it and fakhru, you know what maklong said about those kids scrutinizing future teachers, well, i think i have nightmares about that! aaaaaa!!!!

and today is BIG NEWS because the elections are around the corner SO my program has just been postpone from 1st to 2nd March to 15th to 16th March, huhu, dunno if i should take that as a blessing in disguise or what...i feel indifferent when i got the news :-?

i can be so weird and now, i'm actually drinking coffee, everyone knows i don't drink coffee

i'm pretty nervous :-s

Bismillah, Assalamualaikum :)

today my friends and i went to survey a place where a husband and wife takes care of troubled kids, for my program. i have never dealt with troubled kids before and i'm nervous. but i really think that it's a good exposure for future teachers (esp for future teachers).

just how troubled these kids are...

1. the boys are mostly involved in drugs, some are just into glue but others have gone so far.
2. some boys were involved in theft.
3. majority of the girls have lost their virginity and have involved in a very not healthy and condemn by religion sexual activities.
4. some of the girls have given birth.
5. some kids had ran away from home.
6. family rejected some of the kids because the parents or guardians couldn't handle em anymore.

i saw only one boy during my visit today. his father came to picked him up so that he can go back to his hometown. he looked so innocent. the caregiver said that he was into sniffing glue and that's why his parents sent him there so that they still can save him. and he can be saved. i dunno y i'm saying this but i feel that he can be saved. i want him to be saved. i prayed that he will be saved. because he's young and he has a bright future ahead of him and i hope he realizes that...

that's only 1 boy that i met today. my program is for 2 days and 1 night and i'm nervous just thinking about it :-s

people have high expectations that we are future teachers but really, apart from that, we're all learning and i wanna learn and gain that experience. but i don't expect for the expectations to be lower, i just hope that we can make a difference regardless of what we do, even if it's just cooking with them. i want to get to know these kids. and last but not least;

i want, that for every speech that the future teachers make to these less privileged kids, at least ONE sentence or a phrase or a WORD, can leave a lasting impact to these kids.

that's why it's important for us to be aware of how and what comes out of our mouth :)

Those men― Allah knows what is in their hearts; so keep clear of them, but admonish them and speak to them a word to reach their very souls.
An-Nisa [4:63]

Scrabble Heads

Bismillah, Assalamualaikum :)

i am tired but i can't be tired for a long time, got lotsa stuffs to do, huhu :]
i just got back from University Malaya from attending the


it was a SCRABBLE BLAST!!! i enjoyed every minute of it in spite of losing B U T...

i did win 3 out of 5 games so Alhamdulillah :)

i have always loved Scrabble but sometimes i just don't play it as much as i like to. but when i became my university representative to the NST ASTAR Scrabble Challenge Inter-Varsity, all i could see and dream was scrabble babble, hehe ;)

and so began me playing scrabble with my teammate, evanna,
playing solitaire scrabble (playing alone),
duplicate scrabble (playing with my teammate with the same tiles and trying to achieve the highest number of words),
scrabble at night,
whenever i feel sleepy, i would refrain from sleeping and play scrabble,
taking the scrabble board game to the jmk room and playing with fellow jmk just before meetings,
and REALLY dreaming of scrabble! no joke!

yesterday i dreamt of scrabble too, of all the words i could make and scoring high with the tiles and did i tell you that i have memorized the points a tile has? like for instance, H is a 4?
and so evanna calls me a geek :-B

i learnt that in playing Scrabble, there are 3 important factors:

1. Skill (because u need the knowledge of the word power)
2. Strategy (because u can't just simply put the tiles anywhere u want)
3. Rezeki (because as a muslim, luck is not in my scrabble dictionary and Allah gives enlightment to make words as you may have the tiles but you may not make the word)

playing scrabble with other varsity was an enjoyable moment i'll never forget. so here's pictures:

the drama queen (my teammate that is :p ) and i ;D

the clique i became good friends with throughout the tournament. from left upwards; sharmilie, tanusha, anusha, aminah, evanna and i :)

the day of the tournament, surprisingly the rules were pretty lenient! and to think i had timed myself whenever i practised for 2 minutes every turn when instead, at the tournament, they let us think long and hard but below 5 mins la :>

my first game and i won! :))

my second game and i won again!

my third game and i won! [i know i look pudgy, that's P-3, U-1, D-2, G-2, Y-4 :p ]

i forgot to take pictures for my fourth game and that's probably because i went against the team that i had played in my first game but this time around, he won because as they say, once bitten, twice shy, huhu (i actually forgot the idiom, am i correct then?)

me panicking because i had lost a game :s

my last game and 2nd loss, sob, sob...

Sir Roy from Malaysian Scrabble Association, he's so cool, he just goes up to my tiles and instantly formed a word! and i was still thinking hard and long, huhu :p he says he's been playing for too long!

the closing ceremony :D

Goodbye everyone! i had soooo much fun and what an experience and i wanna enter again next year!!! :))