Welcome 2008 :)

Bismillah, Assalamualaikum :)

Goodbye Mercedes, Welcome Persona ;)
Goodbye 2007, Welcome 2008 ;)

i haven't seen the brand new blueberry tea persona yet but i know i'll be excited to see it because at first, i wondered what the fuss was about when the persona came out, people kept gushing about it saying it's proton's great creation but i thought it wasn't all that great but now that mama bought it, it might be more than meets the eye ;]

so i have a journal cum diary for 2007 and let's just go through the BEST RECAPS OF MY LIFE :)

3 Jan 2007:
for sem 4, i was appointed PKK (Deputy Head of Class) for my cohort 2, my coursemates, not big a deal but i was contented to sort of lead my class. i remembered protesting at first and then learnt to take it positively :)

6 Jan 2007:
started to really play pingpong at college :)

18 Jan 2007:
was appointed as scriptwriter for the play, Visitors to Kenny Hill for the class to perform in panggung budaya as part of the course, selected drama and plays.

20 Jan 2007:
went to Eye of Malaysia at noon but i heard the sight at night was more spectacular! so want to go at night too~

29 Jan 2007:
according to my diary, 'something happened' but i can't recall, hahaha :p

1 Feb 2007:
went to Malacca with half of my coursemates to do a field work for Hubungan Etnik. the field work we chose to do was finding out as much as we can about the lives of the Portuguese people living in the Portuguese Settelement in Malacca. had fun and gain lots of experiences in the 3 days 2 nights trip :D

14 March 2007:
my coursemates and i performed Visitors to Kenny Hill at Panggung Budaya round 8-8.30pm. Alhamdulillah, finished successfully in a state of euphoria :)

26 Monday 2007:
set up a stall selling Brotherhood Badges for the mini convo fair, an unforgettable experience of being a salesperson, huhu..

21 April 2007:
i found out i was elected to be JMK! numb.

30 April 2007:
lost my 3200 Nokia hp :(

4 May 2007:
bought a Sony Ericsson Z710i but until now dunno if that was the best decision made though the hp has everything i want, huhu..

22 May 2007:
went to Aquaria for free! whee!

24 May 2007:
the start of my most COOLEST adventures in Redang Island, thanks to ciknor, my aunt who is a lecturer in the field of marine biotechnologist :D

28 May 2007:
Kem Anak Soleh starts, assign to surau section 18 and loved every minute of it! :D

16 June 2007:
IMS- a gathering for the alumni of my high school at kuala selangor, best because the meeting of old friends and the catching up of stories between me, my friends and the juniors and the seniors :D

27 June 2007:
CAR BREAKDOWN!! i could never get over the traumatic experience of that day but alhamdulillah, many +ve things came in the aftermath of the incident..

4 August 2007:
i lost my voice for how many days, huhu, unbelievable but it's true!

19 August 2007:
i'm 22 years old, unbelievable too! hahaha :p

22 August 2007:
oragnize a talk on Parenting Skills by famous Ustazah Siti Nor Bahyah and her husband. was in charge of the food and had a fun and great time!

8 September 2007:
my biro, International Relations' 1st program of the semester at the futsal court 8pm-11pm for the malam penutup kemuncak kemerdekaan!

22 September 2007:
Mai left for England and the entry in the diary said that 'i cried and felt terribly sad...the house was empty...sob...

24 September 2007:
breaking of fast with the newly appointed Vice Chansellor of UPSI and there was awards given for excellent students and i was one of the recipient, Alhamdullilah :)

29 September 2007:
went to UM for a dialogue session with international students studying there :)

16 November 2007:
went to the Penguin Book Warehouse Sale, best and spoilt for choices!!
not planning to buy anymore books until the next warehouse sale, hehe :p

26 November 2007:
went to the zoo and fell more in love with the big cats! :D

10 December 2007:
thank you secret recipe for the anniversary buy 1 free 1, hehe :]

16 December 2007:
was part of a team to organize KRJ Petaling Explorace.

that's all i guess, the MOST NOTABLE events in my life throughout the year 2007 :)

these are all big events that happened but sometimes, it's not the grand events that happened that affected me most, it's the small ones that would stay with me for a long time, a bit cliche but that's the truth and i do so believe that i mature year after year, if not, hmm...i'm a rotten banana :p

so what's my new year's resolution? to be continued...

How DARE you shoot that tiger!!

Bismillah, Assalamualaikum :<

i am angry. flaming HOT peri-peri ANGRY!!!
i woke up and opened the internet. and i always check the online news. and there was this news:

SAN FRANCISCO - Police shot the 300-pound Siberian tiger to death after a Christmas Day rampage that began when the tiger escaped from an enclosure surrounded by what zoo officials said are an 18-foot wall and a 20-foot moat. Two brothers who also were visiting the zoo were severely mauled.

The same tiger, a 4-year-old female named Tatiana, ripped the flesh off a zookeeper's arm just before Christmas a year ago while the woman was feeding the animal through the bars. A state investigation faulted the zoo, which installed better equipment at the Lion House, where the big cats are kept.

It was unclear how long the tiger had been loose before it was killed. The three visitors were attacked around closing time Tuesday on the 125-acre zoo grounds. Four officers hunted down and shot the animal after police got a 911 call from a zoo employee.
The zoo has a response team that can shoot animals. But zoo officials and police described the initial moments after the escape as chaotic.

The first attack happened right outside the tiger's enclosure — the victim died at the scene. Another was about 300 yards away, in front of a cafe. The police chief said the animal was mauling the man, and when officers yelled at it to stop, it turned toward them and they opened fire.

Tatiana came from the Denver Zoo a few years ago, with officials hoping she would mate with a male tiger. There are more than 600 endangered Siberian tigers living in captivity worldwide.

there's a debate now about how the tiger escaped. some say there's a human involved but why?! however, Sy Montgomery, a naturalist and author whose books include "Spell of the Tiger," said she thinks such a jump is possible. Not every tiger could do it, she said, "but like human beings, every creature has its own amazing athletes."

i dunno but i was VERY UPSET!!

HOW COULD THEY!!

yes, maybe the tiger was violent since it had killed a person but to shoot it just like that??!! it's absolutely unacceptable for me!! and then they lament that the siberian tiger is facing extinction!!

eeee, seriously, i LOVE tigers and i am deeply affected by the news (cewah)
but it's true...

esp since recently, i have gone to the national zoo and went around the BIG CAT families' cages like, 4-5 times and i watched them with so much fascination *_*

as for the incident that just happened this week at the national zoo, when i first read it, i was [i'm sorry to say] on the leopard's side. i tried to remembered Manja's cage and tried to visualize how Manja could have scratched the poor girl but i thought it was unlikely, seriouslyyy~

ok, maybe i shouldn't say anything about that of fear that some people will condemn me but i still believed that the leopard was innocent...
:-!

could i actually be happy and unhappy at the same time?!

Assalamualaikum :)

from kuala terengganu to shah alam to tanjung malim. that's my story for today.

i am unhappy because of my short hols (only a month compared to others but not very fruitful so maybe there's a reason my hols are kept short, huhu)

i am unhappy because i still (don't care!!) want to be at home [sulking]

BUT

i am HAPPY because of my results, ALHAMDULILLAH :)
once again, i made abah mama proud, this one and each and every semester is for my parents [beaming]

and this one GOOD NEWS made all the unhappiness fade away~

THANK YOU ALLAH :)

Happy Eid ul-Adha :)

Bismillah, Assalamualaikum :)

HAPPY EID UL-ADHA to all :)

Just as Prophet Ibrahim was tested throughout his life to see if he would submit or not, so will we be tested to see whether we submit to Allah's commands or refuse! Know that toils, struggles, and hardships will accompany our quest to obedience. But if we obey, we will be in the company of the likes of Prophet Ibrahim and his family in Paradise, as Allah says:

[All who obey Allah and the messenger shall dwell in the company of those whom Allah has favored with His Grace: the prophets, the sincere lovers of Truth, the martyrs, and the Righteous who do good. Ah! What a beautiful companionship!] (An-Nisaa' 4:69)

and we MUST target to be in Paradise, ameen :)

this year is different because my family is celebrating eid ul-adha in shah alam and not in terengganu because abah has to organize qurban in sirim so the balik kampung trip is delayed. and i miss mai always but she's happily away in msm, well, good for her ;)

nway, today, we cooked fried beef, bbq beef, soup beef, hmm...what else :p



and nad gave us rendang beef, wah, so many beef!! and there's still some more in the freezer and sirim is gonna give more and then balik kampung and...i dunno if i can handle all the meat!!



well, sure i can but my teeth is already hurting and besides, i am keeping tabs on the amount of meat that i'm eating, i am fully aware and i am gonna control!!

[InsyaAllah]

Allah is stating that our obedience and submission must be constant and continuous. So hasten to do good deeds before you regret your negligence and failure to act. No one has an agreement with the Angel of Death to delay their death until the time they choose to submit and obey Allah. Ibrahim submitted, Isma`il submitted, Hajar submitted, and now you must submit. What are you waiting for? This is the message of Hajj; this is the message of `Eid. You have heard the message. It's time to submit.

why can't i be more like my dad?!

Bismillah, Assalamualaikum :)

yesterday abah found out that he lost his wallet in the morning but he didn't wake the whole house to tell, only mama knew at that time so when we woke up, mama told everyone to help out but abah went to work already. which just makes me astounded that abah treated a missing wallet with everything innit like it wasn't an emergency :?

IF IT WERE ME, i would AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! where's my wallet?! where's everything??!! and my heart would be thumping wildly, i would get clammy, i would jump to conclusions, i would practically force people (my family esp) to help search, i would want to cry, i would get agitated, frustrated, all stressed out, sulky, panicky, tensed, etc, etc...

yes, that would probably be me...so unlike papa...

mama said that he didn't even tell her what he was looking for it in the first place, just when mama ask then abah told. and he went to work as usual! i was baffled because if it were me then i would have definitely taken the whole day off! besides, abah reported everything missing in the afternoons!

he lost not a lot of money, but his IC, credit cards, all the points card, basically all the very important cards that you expect a working person to be carrying. it disturb me to see abah losing everything but it didn't seem to be disturbing abah at all! abah showed characteristics of a TRUE father, attributes that i looked up to so much and idolize and wished that i too have all those traits.

and i want to as i see abah doing his normal everyday routines...
because if it were me, i would have been very anxious and restless :s

so hope this will be a lesson for me to always train myself to be calm, cool and collected, and i wonder why haven't i got abah's genes on those particular qualities, hmm...

explorace KRJ

Bismillah, Assalamualaikum :)

today was extremely tiring :[

lately the nights have been so cold so i practically had to force myself to wake up this morning and not sleep back again and bathe in the cold water and get ready to become a facilitator for the Kelab Remaja Jim Explorace Game 16th Dec 2007 at Taman Tasik Shah Alam.

i was in charge of a checkpoint, the 2nd one behind Laman Budaya on an island. the task that i was in charge with was that:

1. the group had to divide themselves into boys and girls.
2. the boys had to search for 6 envelopes with a blue circle.
3. whereas the girls have to look for 6 envelopes with a green square.
4. when they have found all 12 envelopes around the island then they have to come back to me.
5. inside both the envelopes, there are 2 pictures that i have cut up and jumbled up and the boys and girls respectively have to solve the puzzle.
6. after they have finished putting all the pieces together, consequently they have to interpret the picture and this is where i test their creativity.
7. i make sure everyone expresses their opinions or else i threaten to reduce their marks!
8. only after i am satisified hence i give them their next clue and wish em luck!

my checkpoint was not difficult at all because the island was small and so there were limited places to cover up the envelopes. basically i just placed them behind a rock or stuffed the envelope in the leaves of a small tree and i wanted to put one on a tortoise's back but it went underwater, huhu :p

initially i wanted the BIG playground beside wetworld but it was too risky as kids would interfere as there were many parents accompanying their kids playing there and that place was also too far from the other checkpoints so i had to give in and settle for the island, huhu~
besides, my island had a boat :D

this explorace was for high school kids and there were grouped with age and gender difference. there were 6 groups for 6 checkpoints and at first, we wanted to maximise the WHOLE of Taman Tasik Shah Alam but in the end, we had to settle using only half of the park. this is because it's really tiring to be going making that full round and moreover, there was time constraints and the fear of heavy rain in the afternoon. in spite of starting late, we still managed to finished the explorace some time after zuhur.

as usual, i had a SMASHING time except at the beginning when i had to wait all alone while the sun stuck its head out and i was wondering when will the 1st group come and attacked me as i practiced giving out my orders, haha :p

the kids were a delight but it just upsets me that some kids do not see the urgency to actually run searching high and low for the envelopes like they just don't see the need to compete and hurry because they are racing for time! i think that everyone has seen The Amazing Race and how the partners just races here and there and everywhere and doing all the task as if their life depended on it but that just doesn't happened much in this explorace and i feel a sense of GERAM as i feel like i want to rush these kids and do whatever it takes to make them see that my checkpoint, though not 100% challenging as i like it to be but still, this is an explorace and they have to perform to excel!

overall, i like to facilitate and i do so believe that maybe i am meant to be a teacher :)

addiction

Bismillah, Assalamualaikum :[

so this hols is taking a toll on me...

now i know what it's like to be addicted...

i know that i have a recurring compulsion to engage in my addiction despite harmful consequences to my health, physical and mental state or social life.

there's something uncontrolled and compulsive inside of me that's overpowering me and making me succumb to my addiction...

i have tried to abstain, refrain, hold back, everything to overcome my addiction but still, i fail and at times, my addiction increases rather than decreases...

The development of my addiction is thought to involve a simultaneous process of 1) increased focus on and engagement in a particular behavior and 2) the attenuation or "shutting down" of other behaviors.

i have begun to realize that what i have is generally accepted that addiction is a disease, a state of physiological or psychological dependence or devotion to something manifesting as a condition in which medically significant symptoms liable to have a damaging effect are present.

yes, it can be damaging because i could become fat and obese and my cheeks will be bloated and puffy and chubby and then it could take a turn for the worse as i slowly have low self-esteem and i don't wanna see anyone anymore and i just wanna be indoors and sulked and that won't be helping because i could turn to being addicted again and again...

The speed with which i become addicted to various foods varies with the foods, the frequency of use, the means of ingestion, the intensity of pleasure or euphoria, and my genetic and psychological susceptibility.

perhaps addiction is a choice, but i still need help...

:(

a new template i like! ;D

Bismillah, Assalamualaikum :)

so how do you like my new template? i did say i was gonna change it and i fell in love at 1st sight with this template so i have changed it but still not 100% finished or in my terms, as perfect as i want this template to be :D

what's bugging me is that there's still a difference in this new template when you look at it in mozilla and ie. i know ie is pretty outdated and nobody really fancies ie but this template still looks beautiful in ie! but i'm at my wits end trying to figure out how to solve that problem so i'll just have to be contented because this new template is gonna stay with me for a looooong time now ;)

so what color font would be most suitable to match in an entry? or will black just do?

btw, that's a picture of my cousin Aqilah or nama manja, qila or ila who lives in section 7 with my ayahsu doctor and ciksu teacher and her brother zafri who will start schooling next year. she's 2 years old and sometimes stubborn and she likes to eat while running around and today when i lepak2 at her house, she snatched my handphone and licked it! eeeewwwww! :p

secret recipe and the golden compass

Assalamualaikum :)

today was a pretty good day :)

firstly, Happy Birthday to my elder bro who's turning 24 years old currently at home. may Allah bestow him with all the blessings :)

i woke up early today because the day b4, abah bought french bread and garlic spread and i was supposed to do garlic bread from the mini oven and it was not really as good as the ones you get in bread stores but it was okayyy, huhu

another reason why i woke up early was because today was Secret Recipe's 10th anniversary and the store was celebrating it by doing a promotion that when you buy 1 whole cake then you are entitled for a free whole cake! now, that's tempting! it's only happening on the 10th Dec 2007, at 10 outlets and according to The Star article, Secret Recipe is giving away approximately 6,0000 whole cakes! whoa!

i targeted to get to the sacc mall (the only secret recipe store doing the promotion in shah alam) by 9.30am but mama wasn't feeling well this morning and she insisted that i take her to work. and then the wira was out of fuel so had to fill it up and all of that took 20 minutes or so. so i speeded to take nad and then we were off to sacc and straight to.....

the very looooooong line in front of the Secret Recipe O_O

THANK YOU to zahrah for basically safe guarding the line for us. well, it may seem unfair but she was gonna share the purchase of the cake with nad and i was...erm...a friend :p

oh, i do feel guilty but well, let's just say that we don't do this all the time and it's not like anyone out there has never done it so there! :">

along is surely lucky that his birthday falls on the same day that Secret Recipe is doing this promotion because i stand in the line for an hour until i finally bought White Chocolate Macadamia Cake and got to choose a free Chocolate Indulgence Cake...oooo, ain't that yummy shummy to you!

actually i don't really fancy Chocolate Indulgence though i know many people love it but the choice was limited and i wanted my family to not complain so darn it, i just chose something familiar to their tastebuds :D

now those 2 cakes are WHOLE and BIG and it will last my family for a month supply of cakes, hahaha and calories people, watch the weight, huhuhu~

so i watched The Golden Compass and i love it! i never thought that the ending would be in a cliffhanger but that's just the trick to keep me wanting more, yeah, i know ;p

besides, the movie is based on a book and probably that's the first book and it was mighty fine! i have always taken an immense LOVE towards fantasy stories and i guess i have never outgrown kids fantasy tale coz that's why i just love Harry Potter and LOTR and Narnia and etc.

The Golden Compass took my breath away for many of its scenes and the animations and all the CGI and the animals, uuu, i so love watching the animals!

the idea that every human has a daemon that is like your soul is pretty cool in a way...

like n3mah said, it's like we humans will always have a companion so we won't get bored and that a daemon in a form of an animal will kinda protect us and i want a SNOW TIGER, maybe just like the one that Lord Asriel has because it looks really super cool! or maybe just a tiger ;p

and i'm gonna name it something that sounds like the witch's name in the movie because that name sounds nice, Serafina Pekkala, hehe :p

i'll think about that later :p

actually i don't really fancy Lyra, hmm..can't really say but i have seen better fantasy kid actors than her, huhu...

and just a ponder [not that i'm preaching or anything] but doesn't the story sort of influence kids to tell tall tales?! i mean, Lyra is bright, yes and she knows when to be cunning but do the kids as audience get that?! i don't really care about the controversy concerning this movie since it's about religion but this is what has become my concern when i watched it...

could be the 'teacherly aura' that's in me that's asking this questions?! :p

ok, picture this:

lyra where's the homework i told you to pass up yesterday?
lyra: well, u see teacher...there was this blabla blabla, u get the picture?!

like when she made a bet to Billy Costa and told the king of the biggie bear, Pantalaimon the story of how she became Iorek Byrnison's daemon but she's really not, geddit? well you will if you watched it :p

don't get me wrong, i love that part but i'm saying about the reality of it, haha, bajet serious :p

but i do so love the story and can't wait for the part II :D

tale of the afghan girl

Assalamualaikum :)

so i have just finished reading Reader's Digest Nov 2007 issue and i wanted to make a personal response towards the section, RD Book Bonus entitled The Other Side of the Sky by Farah Ahmedi.

it's about the writer's journey from her war-torn country to freedom as in where she is now, in Chicago, USA. it all started when she was 7 years old and it was a time when she probably was oblivious to her surroundings and all she wanted to do was go to school and gather as much knowledge as she can in her spongey brain.

the best part was that she had always wondered what the sky was like and what was on the other side of the sky? this thought is just sooo cute and shows how innocent she was at that moment and i pictured her with her hair so smooth with the wind blowing and she is standing on tiptoe looking up at the sky, hehe :)

but she never reached school because she woke up with her family members saying that she had stepped on a land mine, oh dear...

because there was lack of medicine in Afghanistan, she was chosen to go to Germany and there, her leg was amputated and she was given a prosthetic leg. she grew to love Germany and you can't really blame her as she gradually understands the circumstances in her country. it just saddens me that not only does she had to lose her leg at such a young age but she was also separated from her family and her birth place is in such a mess, just makes you grateful huh..

when she returned back to Afghanistan, she rebel at the fact that she probably was even raised there, well, i think it's because she was turning into a teen then and well, you can just imagine what teenagers are going through and the fact that she has been to Germany probably makes her compare both countries. but then she stop rebelling and it made my heart applause for her because she's finally coming to terms with her Afghan roots :)

then the worst happened and when i was reading it, i felt the dread too and it was that her father and two sisters got killed because a rocket had hit their house :'(

that was sooo sad because it's like, somehow, their house was just gonna be hit since there were always rockets zooming past and i gripped my heart at the thought of living hearing the rockets everyday knowing that at the end, the rockets did hit their home, sob...

the Taliban rule Afghanistan now and they wanted all families to give up boys to build up troops. Farah had 2 brothers, however, their family was from a different ethnic group, Hazaras and the Taliban had a special hatred towards Hazaras so maybe they would execute Hazaras boys. so it was decided that the Hazaras boys escape Afghanistan to Pakistan. her brothers were 16 and 9 years old respectively and they held hands as they walked out leaving behind their families forever and Farah wrote that, I never saw my brothers again.

i shed a tear reading that because i could never ever imagine separating from any of my family members and never seeing them, like forever~

the following story continued as Farah and her mother too planned their escape to Quetta, a city on the Pakistan side of the Afghan border. they journeyed through thick and thin and i read in admiration that desperation does do wonders and that both of them were determined to start a new life somewhere and that they just had to get there!

i was rooting for them!

they became refugees but i guess it was better because they still had hope. what saddens me is that a Christian organisation helped them to get to America. where are the muslims? :<

eventhough at first, Farah and her mother's hopes were dashed because of the sept 11 but in the end, they finally arrived at America and now, they're living in Chicago and slowly, both of them are picking up the pieces in their lives.

this is one tale of a girl who wanted to know what the sky looked liked when she was young and now she finally went to the other side of the sky and maybe she got her answer after all :)

i am enchanted *_*

Assalamualaikum :)

I have been contemplating on updating my blog and it’s not that I don’t want to but just that I have no inspiration on what topic to touch on, huhu :]

So I have just watched Enchanted and I am left…enchanted! Hehe ;)

This is because I have always liked feel good movies plus it’s from Disney, my all-time favorite ;)
p/s: furthermore, I can’t really watch those movies that make me lemah-jantung, haha :p

Enchanted’s a whimsical story of fantasy and wish-fulfillment that will have you giggling almost as much as Giselle and certainly leave you smiling from ear to ear. It will make you believe that happily-ever-afters do come true after all.

The movie made me grin and feeling all lovey dovey and watching in awe at how Amy Adams is so dazzling as the displaced damsel, no doubt a Disney icon for young girls everywhere. She’s a cartoon incarnate with a personality as cheery and bouncy as the strawberry-blonde ringlets that cascade over her tiara. Her mannerisms are flowery, her giggle is sugary sweet, her eyes sparkle in wonderment. Her transformation from caricature to dynamic human being is a treat to watch.

And so I downloaded the OST because the songs are haunting and I don’t really fancy Carrie Underwood but the song, Ever Ever After is starting to be ringing in my head, ever ever after~

And do I believe in ever ever after? Of course I do and why is that?! Because when your love is based on the grounds of the Islamic pillars and Allah blesses your love, as in marriage of course then it’s surely ever ever after!
Who disagrees?! [raised eyebrows :p]

true friends test

Create your own Friend Test here

i have been meaning to do this so peeps, pls try!

best tak? :p

start sem break

Assalamualaikum :)

so i'm home and i'm lethargic because of the volunteering work at the zoo, feels like as if i have a hung over except i'm sober, just the expression of being overly exhausted, huhu...
but i kept thinking of that day and how i would love to do it all over again~

so today is the 29th november 2007 and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to n3mah or name5a, it's the same person, just either the former or the latter name is more glamorous, beats me :p

so she's just moved to a new blog and here's the link-> http://name5avol2.blogspot.com/
so i say, happy moving to blogspot, hey, sometimes being unique just doesn't work out, haha :p

but naeemah doesn't have to even try to be unique coz she just is ;)
i'm glad i got close to her those days when she was homesick and kept coming sibuk2 at our dorm, just to be with her sis, hehe ;p
and then after she moved, we would be posting each other letters getting as creative as we could and she would always inspire me to be more creative and more colorful, hehe :)
and i kept all of your letters until now as they are treasures for me to treasure :)

i don't know what to do this hols, i wanna make money as in work but who would take me? because i have only a month of my sem break and moreover, the lure of my bed in the mornings is just too tempting, huhu :p
and nawwar tagged me to do a breakfast thingy and my reply would be that i ALMOST ALWAYS try to have that early-in-the-day-meal because i believed in the importance of having a hearty breakfast before 10am but sometimes either i just sleep through that breakfast period or i'm just too lazy to eat so early in the morning, sigh~
additionally, i don't like it when i have stomachache due to breakfast so early in the morning, huhu..
i do so want to have breakfast everyday, hopefully! and when i do, i would feel really satisfied if i have a really hearty breakfast, wuuu, yummylicious! :D

so there's weddings this weekend and i can't wait to see my friends! i'm coming ;)

volunteering at the zoo

Assalamualaikum :)

i am really very tired right now and it's all because i did volunteering work at the national zoo but I HAD LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT :)

i dunno how to put into words so let the pictures do all the talking ;)

we were first divided into groups and my group consisted of 4 guys and 4 girls including me so that equals 8 members of my group. all 8 of us rarely know each other, we just knew each other's name and face but not more than that. the guys were all in their last semester, timie-> who i had played ping-pong with, faizal->timie's housemates, ke->also housemates, zairi->he's supposedly under my biro jmk but because he's in the last semester, so he doesn't participate much. the girls comprised of me, milah, nani and gda, all the mpsah girls [yeah, semangat sket kan ;p]

eventhough we were shy-shy cat at first but we hit if off great and soon, we created a name for ourselves, The Monks, we took many great pictures, we kononnye made a cover album for the group including konon2 songs, hehe, we bought for the groups pegs where we each signed our names, and oh we had so much fun and i missed all of them dearly :)

the first job we had to do was...tan tarra! clearing the place behind the monkeys' cage, as in outside of the cage, huhu...

i don't mean not to be grateful but i didn't like the thought of being close with the monkeys and i expected to be working close with the animals not clearing the place, huhu...

but i shouldn't even be thinking like that because i had a great time and besides, i am doing volunteering work thus i should be receiving any work whatsoever with an open arm!

i cleared this place near this black baboon's cage and when i came nearer to clear the leaves that kept falling and making a mess near the cage, the baboon stuck it's hand out and I SCREAM!!! i trembled and my heart felt like as if it could shoot out from my insides!!! i do not like primates, i'm sorry and when it kept sticking its hand out for the second time, i ran away like crazy!!!

we didn't just work, we also made our rounds to sight see all the best things in the zoo. and the best part about having a sticker that proves that i'm a volunteer is that i could go anywhere in the zoo that said no entry to visitors!! that has got to be the best part ever!! i went behind the tiger's cage where they kept this big agressive looking tiger named pamci there because it was meal time. when the zookeeper called out it's name, it growled and looked at us and then...it turned its back on us and pee!!! everyone ran screaming in all directions!!! hahaha, it was soooo funny and i was sooo relieved that i was standing at the sides and not directly behind the tiger's butt. kurengnye pamci, huhu :p

nobody got hit by the way, hehe :D

if computers had hidden files, well, zoos have hidden cages too, hehe ;)

and the hidden cages are wild horses that even i was scared to go near them :s

another best part was that i put a python around my body. initially i was scared but i mustered up all the courage i got for this reptile that i'm so fascinated to watch! the keeper said that the trick was not to squeeze it or provoke it and so i tried to keep a straight face while doing so and i loved it! it was soooo cool and at the zoo alone, i held 3 snakes, hehe :)

what i learned while volunteering:

always ask around especially information concerning the animals! i mean, i have got the opportunity to actually be behind the scenes at the zoo and i have to collect as much info as i could to widen my knowledge. i got to know that snakes poo in the water but God knows from where, huhu :p

i went to every single door that had a NO ENTRY sign for visitors. i actually said to my group mates that they shouldn't hesitate because even if we made a mistake, then we could easily say that we gotten in the wrong door, huhu..we are volunteers ;)

i practically force my group mates to do all the rounds in the zoo! come on la, it's not like everyday you get a free entry in the zoo and you get access to all the best places in the zoo so that's where the exploring needs to be done! live life to the fullest!

eventhough the zoo is pretty neglected but that's why volunteers are needed and i don't know if i have made a difference because i didn't do much but i like to believe that what i did made a difference inside of me! firstly, all animals are creation of Allah and Subhanallah, all of the animals are such a wonder to look at! Praise to Allah because all the animals are so fascinating and they kept me amazed and transfixed for a very long time especially the most atrocious creatures! next, we should really save the animals from extinction! when i looked at some of the animals that are nearly wiped out from this earth, i became very sad :(

i do hoped that my children get to see those animals soon~

additionally, do not litter!! please, i beg all of you, don't you love the animals, don't you love the zoo, don't you love the earth??!! so don't litter and try to keep the animals safe from all those rubbish that made such an eye-sore!

i loved every minute that i volunteered working there and when i became a teacher then most definitely i would want to do something like this to my students! this program from the JMKZ biro akademik and penyelidikan, 26th November 2007, 7am until 5pm will truly be one of the most sweetest yet tiring day ever!

Happy Birthday Mai Sis

Assalamualaikum :)

it's 19th November and it's M(",)i Sis 20th Birthday so

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

i tried calling you yesterday and i was THRILLED that i got through! i didn't know that maxis had any kind of service whatsoever that allowed me to make calls overseas and i checked and i think that it's okayla, not that cheap but not that expensive either [i forgot, hehe]

i missed you so much and i think that it showed because my voice cracked :'(
i just missed knowing you're here and that we could talk whenever anything at all came up and now that you're over there and sometimes i don't get the internet connection at college and that sms is just not enough...
but i'm not going to be sad so here's your wish:

mai, firstly i wish you what you truly wish for yourself :)
i wish that you would always excel in whatever you do because you deserve all that :)
don't you know that eventhough i'm the elder sister but i looked up to you sooo much ;)
at the kem anak soleh, i told the girls that kak mai was the perfect role idol in front of their eyes, she's balanced and she never forget's Allah's obligations while studying. i said to the girls, that they have to always perform the dhuha prayers in order for their rezeki to be murah and when they have the opportunity, to wake up in the middle of the night to perform qiamulail because kak mai did that and look where she's at. and the girls went aahhhhsss and oohhhhss and their eyes admired you and that's what you get for being all that :)

and i'm so proud of you. when you left, i feel i could write a poem about you but that i'm not that good, hehe ;)
you take care of yourself and always uphold what values abah mama have taught you and remember that blood always runs thicker than water. families come first! even when there's a super good-looking and nice guy there, make sure that you know he's the one, hehe :p

you have a nice birthday and hope that as the year passes you by, you age gracefully and become much more wiser, more intelligent and InsyaAllah nearer to your goals to become a GREAT doctor (so that i'll get free medications :p)

again, i miss you so much :-*

the big Penguin books warehouse sale

Assalamualaikum :)

right now, there's a not-so-much big gap between the exams but the gap is big enough for me to go the most-anticipated PENGUIN book warehouse sale at petaling jaya. when i walked into the warehouse, i never knew there were soooooo many books!!! well, actually the advertisement in the newspaper did say that there were going to be 20, 000 books but still, i could scarcely believed my eyes to see so much book galore! and that was just seeing, because i said to myself that i'm gonna make sure i managed to go all around the 20, 000 books though i felt a bit dizzy and crazy! i got myself a box (like a trolley) and started to rummage through the books and found myself squealing a lot!! the reason is that the books are UNBELIEVABLY cheap!! i just can't believe it, no wayyy but the kiran desai book, the inheritance of loss at all major bookstores cost RM35.90 but i got one for RM10!!! it was too good to be true but it's true!!

i know that i target to buy lots of literature books to make myself a collection and so i only bought 2 chick flicks, one from jennifer weiner who i fell in love after reading (and watching) in her shoes. i knew that penguin was famous for its literature collection but i never knew that there were just soooo many!! i had a hard time choosing and making up my mind on whether i should spend so many :<
the classics literature books cost as low as RM1.50 to RM4 and though it was a bargain, but i have no credit card yet so i what i did was i put every books that i found inside my trolley cum box and after 3 hours there with the dust and heat, my friends and i sat down and made our selection counting along with a calculator, hehe :p

the cash counter was empty because everyone lined up at the credit card counters but that's ok. i was satisfied with my purchase and i'm not gonna tell the world how much i spend, huhu :p
but it's all for a long term investment! :D
and just like my literature lecturer who always says that he goes to big sales like that and buying books that cost as low as RM1. for me, that's inspirational because i would like to be a person who's been there and done that just through reading! but also by travelling! ;D

someone 'high and mighty and probably-envious' said to me that she doesn't believe that books should be on sale and my friends and i was like, well, that's probably because you can afford books at RM30+ but this warehouse sale was a BIG bargain and besides, why not?! when the books are still looking crispy and new and the price is RM10?! and in spite of my finger got a cut but it was all worth it at the end of the day :)

i kept looking at the books and i can't wait until the exams is over because i want to read all of em and i'm just soooo excited, hehe :D
so mai, when you come back home next year, you will see that my book cupboard will be full of reallyyy interesting books! it feels good to be a literature student :))

exam mode

Assalamualaikum :)

i'm still in the middle of the finals and the anxiety level is still high and likewise with the affective filter, huhu..

for the paper, rekabentuk instruksional and teknologi, the only paper in bm this sem, which was yesterday was too frustrating for words! duncha just hate it when what you read and then you do 4 sets of past years but still, when you finally sat for the real thing, it just doesn't tally all that?! urgh!! there was this question and it had the answer options as follows:

a. semua adalah benar

b. semua adalah salah

c. ada sebahagiannya benar

d. sebahagian kenyataan adalah tidak tepat sama sekali

okayyyy, helloooo mr whoever-did-the-questions!! i mean, what's with that??!! and i thought hard for what to circle, until i accidently dozed off, hehehe, well, it was in the afternoon after all :">

i have a story to share...

last week i went to the tanjung malim pasar malam for the most finger-licking grilled chicken wing sold there, and i met one of the college bus driver. he was with his son because the son look like him. nway, it wasn't the first time that i had met both of them, so i reminisced back to the first time and that was in the local tanjung malim supermarket...

i was choosing on what yogurt drink to buy, not looking at the price mind you but at what flavor i haven't had in a while...tsk...tsk...

and then i overheard the conversation between mr bus driver and his son. the son was choosing on some fried snacks and when he picked up an ayamas branded one, the father said, no, that's too expensive. so he chose another one, but his father shook his head and said that was expensive too. then the father picked up what looked like a plain plastic one, and then he said, let's just buy this one (okay, the dialogue is in malay but i dunno how best to make it sound dramatic, huhu) and consequently they just left.

i was looking intently at them with the fridge door opened because being indecisive, i haven't made my choice yet. but then i just couldn't buy because it was too overwhelming :'(

i mean, i HAVE NEVER had to think about food being expensive [except for the obvious one la]

it was always, when my family and i went shopping in giant or any supermarket, we could just grab anything and our parents would just pay for the items. there was never any question that an ayamas fried something is expensive...

i was dumbstruck and it made me think reallyyy bad because some people out there have it so much worse and i just gotta stop being ungrateful...

a star columnist once wrote that she wore a band on her right wrist and everytime she complained, she would switched the band to her left wrist. the challenge was to not complain for one day, 24 hours but at the end of the day, she failed to do so...

now, i wonder where that band would end up if i had worn it...maybe i should...maybe we all should challenge ourselves, because nobody likes a whiner, hehe ;)

my OCD, now you know how weird i am...

Assalamualaikum :)

because there's no study group this week since my friend went back home to celebrate deepavali then i'm left to strive on my own and now the wireless access at college is like streamyx then i just have to update! besides, when the going gets tough as i study then i have to turn to the distractions and this proves to be the best, huhu :]

so i got tag by n3mah (her and all the tagging :p) and i got interested by this one which i think i'm gonna do. HOWEVER, this tag called My 8 Random Facts scares me because i think it would scare other people!! seriouslyyy and this is all because i have, what you called, Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) which is a psychiatric anxiety disorder most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive, distressing, intrusive thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or "rituals") which attempt to neutralize the obsessions. you can check the encyclopedia for more info and be surprised!!

so here goes...

The Rules:
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve tagged, and to read your blog.

MY 8 RANDOM FACTS

1. since it's exam time so i'll start of with something that has to do with revision. i like to color my notes, and i have bought all the colors of the stabilo swing cool highlighters and i have to color my notes starting with yellow, then green, blue, purple, pink and lastly orange. it HAS to follow the sequence!! it does or it'll bug me!!

2. the pens and pencils in my pencil case have to be arranged so the caps are facing all the same way. and i check whether everything is there everyday or day and then in the night. there has to be a liquid paper, 6 highlighters, 6 blue pens, 2 black pens, 2 mechanical pencils, 2 erasers.

3. i HAVE to match my clothes from top to bottom!

4. the colors of the pegs have to match with the colors of the clothes that is going to be dried.

5. i HAVE to make sure that everything in the room is in the right place! for instance, i'll know if the bed or if any of my possessions have been moved because i ALWAYS have the need to check...

6. i can't wink my eye too n3mah, uwaa!!!

7. i like to blow my hijab, fuh2 and then my eyes will become all juling2 @,^

8. i hate it when i have ocd but i can't help it, sometimes it's a +ve thing but other times, it bugs me soooo bad!!! actually there's more where this comes from but i've exposed too much of myself for now, it sure is scary huh...and it scares me more...

so help you help me~

and i wanna tag anyone who wants to share their random facts too, c'mon you!

take a break between finals!

currently feeling: hungry
listening to: michael buble - home

Assalamualaikum :)

so i'm taking a break (just for today nway). yesterday was the first paper, literature for teenagers, yes, i have to learn what's the best way to integrate literature to suit teenagers [esp in the malaysian context]. and the lecturer said beforehand that the paper would be 'difficult', well, he was sure right about that! BUT he also said that there would be 2 sections, the 1st one being short answers and the 2nd one is essay writing. when i received the paper in the exam hall, there was only 1 page! and it was all essay questions, okayyyy, hellooo, i thought i was the only one with a question mark pasted on my face but when i turned around, all my friends were shrugging their shoulders and passing remarks, hey, is this the right question paper, what the...until the invigilator hushed everyone up, huhu..

last sunday, the college had a grand eid celebration and all the jmk were involved. ever since i became a jmk, i also became somewhat of a buruh kasar, hehehe, because all the setting up of the canopy with all the metal and the tent had to be done by the jmk and it was all heavy!! athough there were guys but girls were needed and even though it's not really that okay to move around with heavy metals but a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do, huhu :p
besides, it was fun while it lasted, mostly because i love being around the people of jmk, we're getting closer by the events, hehe ;)

the grand eid celebration turned out well except some people didn't get enough food and that included me! there were chicken and beef rendang, nasi impit, lontong, kuah kacang, soto, lemang, laksa, choc cakes, jelly, fruits and drinks and i only had lemang with rendang though i had my eye on the laksa the whole time but i missed it because in the middle of the celebration, the jmk had to work, and me, i had to passed around the garbage bags, huhu, pakai cantik2 kena pegang beg hitam, huhu :p
nway, i noticed that people just like to waste food!!! and that makes me soooooo mad!! esp the muslims and this is bad because we should definitely know better! that wasting food is a trait of the shaitan but why do we still do it! from my observation, some girls like to take up everything and then they would sit and eat and put aside some dishes for later but then they forget they have that dish OR they would be too full to finish it up and so they just leave it!! i'm so pissed because not only do these people waste but there were people who didn't get to eat and i, as the garbage bag girl notices these things and urgh!!! i do not waste my food okay so this is when i practise what i preach, sheesh!

it is still eid and the food comes in abundance but let's reflect...
don't waste and eat only what you can manage...
control yourself when you're eating, in spite of pining for the laksa but i took it +vely that it just wasn't my rezeki to eat that laksa, maybe good for my cheeks too...
ALWAYS think of the unfortunate esp those who never experience food in profusion...
be grateful of the food, hence try not to complain...

happy eid while it lasts :)
not happy to be sitting for my finals but i want to graduate, hehe ;)

back in college

Assalamualaikum :)

so i'm back at college, with the study groups and the struggle of studying because finals coming up, i'm sooo nervous and this time around, the anxiety level is really HIGH!! [don't we say that in every finals?!] :p

anyway, actually i wanted to go back last thursday but when i talked to one of my coursemate who's already there, he said that there's no one around and that the college is very deserted plus the canteens are not open yet. so i told myself, if that's the case, i might as well just stay a bit longer at home and my parents agreed. and i could study at home, just that i have to focus a lot more because the temptations prove to be challenging, hehe!

on saturday night, i went to Sirim's eid celebration and they served goat which is just simply my favourite and that's basically all what i had eaten that night since i don't feel like eating rice and i wasn't in favor of the satay. the highlight of the night had to be the part when i received duit raya! hehe, don't be jealous but there were aplenty more after the kids' turn so the sirim people paved the way for the singles if we want to and we do! well, actually, initially i sulked at the thought of going to the front but my mom pestered me and said, hey, that's an opportunity to be taken, go! and besides, i looked to see many singles making their way, so i just went and received duit raya in a sirim money envelope which was, well, cool in a way :D

so the next day, sunday, was the day that i went back to college and since my parents were also on their way to penang because daddy has work there so i thought i just follow suit driving behind their car. now, abah drove moderately (as usual) but also because he was concern with me, not that he didn't trust me but it's like he was looking out for me and that was reallyyy touching~

but the MOST TOUCHING part of all, was when it was the junction for the two cars to part, my dad opened his window and put out his hand to wave at me and then my mother did the same!!! and that was soooo it, i felt so moved that there were tears forming in my eyes, oh, THANK YOU ABAH MAMA :))

it was really just a small gesture but it meant a lot to me, and i feel more motivated to study, because my excellent results {InsyaAllah} would definitely be dedicated to my parents :)

to be the best

Assalamualaikum :[

currently feeling: frustrated
listening to: life is beautiful - vega 4

yeah, i should do that more often esp when i do a new skin because i know my current skin now is not suitable. n3mah and kak aalaa use to do that...hmm...have they forgotten now...

nway, i read somewhere that to be a really good-everybody-will-sure-read-your-blog blogger, then you have to dish out some dirt somewhere! the example given is that this girl wrote about her experiences of being heartbroken and how she got over the guy and basically it was because of a third party and blablabla, and so she said that many people read her blog and commented and after that, people kept coming back for more and she said that her ratings went up and she became a famous blogger! and i was like, so that's it??!!
another example is about this girl who would dish out about her surroundings and she would be giving brickbats everywhere and to everyone and she said that people like it so she would continue doing so. hmm...now it made me think...

of course i would like people to read my blog and i'm already grateful for having avid readers but to dish out dirt??!! that just ain't me, reallyyy because first of all, i don't like to expose myself and hence make myself vulnerable to the whole world. besides, if i do, then i'm giving opportunities for people to judge me and though i know that people always tend to do that but i wouldn't want to be freely judged. secondly, who doesn't have dirt??!! i do and i have many!! sometimes i do feel like dishing and i know girls have a tendency to be bitchy but i won't do that on the internet. it's just not nice and besides, i have a reputation to uphold and to tell the world that my parents raised me better than that. next, i wouldn't like to stoop too low so no-no to dishing and lastly, it's aib to dish people's dirt so when you take care of other people's aib then Allah will take care of your aib. ain't that right people?!

recently, an anonymous person said to me that my blog just doesn't have enough input. that person suggested that because s/he like my writings then maybe i should write about some important issues rather than focusing on my experiences. well, i know that sometimes i don't write about war or rape or whatever current issues there is and it's not because i don't want to but i prefer to ponder on what i have experienced and i always have this hope to inspire people and i want to do so in my writings and the best way i can channel that is through what i have went through. eventhough there's no dirt but there's still some pixie dust...

besides, i treat my blog like a jurnal so that means i can write about anything right? and i would like to say, you can't judge me and if you don't like my blog then there are thousands more blog out there BUT...what that person said disturbs me, it's like as if i'm not enough...and it hurts...

should i take offence? maybe that person like to see me developed...maybe that person had no intention to miffed me and maybe i'm just being emotional, oh sob! so here's dirt, pls comment before it gets muddy :(

to kak aalaa and other things

Assalamualaikum :)

i know this is pretty late but better late than never huh, and may i add, better cliche than not, hehe :p

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK AALAA, sweet 23 on the 20th oct 2007! and not to worry, for me, you still look ever so young and you totally rock! now, lemme go back to the days when i first got to know kak aalaa. we were dormmates when i was in form 3 and she in form 4 and i loved my dormmates back then because i had such cool people like kak mar, kak aalaa's partner in crime turned mummy now, kak iman. there were kamilah shafii, mar rais, madihah, maisarah, aisyah shahidan and okayyy, did i mix up my previous dormmates?! hope not, kak aalaa, am i right here??!! hehe :">

nway, i found out that kak aalaa was and IS reallyyyy creative and cool and i just found myself liking her and her works because she made the dorm all colorful and awesome, hahaha, mesti kak aalaa gelak2 niii :p
i SO remembered when it was my birthday. everyone was getting ready to go to school and kak aalaa was still in bed (i remembered it was quite difficult waking her up!) and then she kinda sat up on the bed [i guess everyone thought she was gonna go down and bathe or something] but all she did was "happy birthday wan!" and then PLOP back on the bed!!! okayyyy, biar betullll kak aalaa niiii....i was like, "thank you kak aalaa" beaming and all and "bgnla kak aalaa!" and then i guess she realized that if she didn't wake up, she would wake up with the dorm empty, haha :p

nway, kak aalaa, for your birthday, i wanna wish you everything you really wish for yourself! and if you don't know yet, then i love your creative juices, always have and always will so pls maintain your creativity inside and outside!! i mean, look at your blog now! and you always make me laugh esp when you team up with imang, hehe :D

okay kak aalaa, you better open this blog with ie from now on, esp when reading this post! hehe :)

so right now, i'm pretty much studying for my finals and i find that i can stay up until 1am studying! and i wake up around 8am or 9am, after subuh that is, is that supposed to be good?! i dunno..
i find that i tend to munch when i'm studying so there's danger there, oh uh..
i find that maybe at college, it'll be just the same with studying and the distractions, at home, there's tv, cooking, shopping, chores, more food! at college, there's jmk stuffs, chit chatting with peers, going to the canteen, have to wash your own clothes...hmm...